Like everyone else that has this disorder, disease, illness, what ever you choose to call it. I’ve only recently fully started to accept it.
As anyone else who is bipolar can sympathize, today marks my second separation from my second marriage.
I’ve come to realize that yes, I’ve ruined every relationship I’ve ever had in my life. I sit here in my rented bedroom trying to piece myself back together. I’ve had to leave behind my wife, kids, pets, and home of 9 years this time.
But this time is different. This time i accept what has happened. This time i will make that final change. The change for myself.
I’ve never blogged, written in a journal, or taken any notes in my life.
This IS my new life. Only i can change myself. Only i can fix myself. I will move forward.